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God it's GOD !!!!

Curtain raises

Location: Breakfast place – The Machines’ Lab !

Saranya : enna di ore bhakthimayamaa vandhirukke
Nee thaan atheist ache (Subha joins her)
Me: atheist ???? me !!!! Who told you?????
Subha : hey aren’t you an atheist?????
Me : No!!!!
Saranya : en di vibhudhi vechirukke
Me : Dad wanted me to !!! yen atheist aa irundhaa vibhudhi vechikkakudatha?
Sowmya : seri freeya vidunga di…….(a perfect ending !!!)

Curtain falls


Atheism !!!

I am apprehensive about being branded that way ! Strangely, my mum too regards me an atheist. Am I feigning theism or for that matter atheism? Well, I did give a sincere and a serious thought about it and unraveled something really interesting about my mystical thought process. I deem the so-called ‘Holy Scriptures’ to be an ‘Outstanding fantasy writing’ very much like our present J K Rowling’s magnificence in writing. Thousands of centuries later, who knows, Harry Potter could be reckoned a ‘happened-before’ incident. To me, these scriptures are implausible. I personally feel that such stories were made up to instill fear in the minds of people. It was a very tactful creation to claim a stronghold on people. Many would cite various existing and traces of once existed artifacts, monuments and pagodas. My strong conviction is that such things were already anticipated and pre meditated. Am I sounding like I have been greatly influenced by Dan Brown’s ‘The Da Vinci Code’? Well, No !

I don’t doubt holiness but I doubt the very ‘Personification of Holiness’ or simply the 'Humanness of God'. See, (I’m still capitalizing the first letter of ‘God’ ! I was taught in my school days that it was an unwritten rule to capitalize the first letter in words like ‘God’ and ‘Himself’) I do believe in higher powers but not a total surrender to an illusionary personification of higher power. I believe that somewhere in our body, there is a place that gives you some confidence and consolation in times of distress and loneliness. It is this strange feeling that has been tactfully exploited by many who declare ‘Believe in God’ rather than ‘Believe in Yourself’ !

I know what you are thinking ! I am sounding too prejudiced and atheistic ! But am not !!! I am an atheist when it’s prefixed with various super natural beliefs like Astrology and others. I am a theist when it’s prefixed with some higher (not above the sky !!! but the zenith of knowledge – one’s own mind !) power centering on the individual.

Temples !!! I visit temples, though not frequently. But I love going there because it gives me a sense of peace. The idols are beautifully carved and sculptured and just like how Sara Crewe gives me immense pleasure, so do those ‘Divine idols’. Temples are made of stone and such stones add some chillness and peace to the atmosphere. I love the way these stones treat me when I enter a temple (I’ve never been to a church or a mosque !).

How am I vetoing the allegations thrown on me of being an atheist ? I am not against prayers. To me, God is the manifestation of one’s own self-belief. It exudes a feeling of not being lonely. I do pray ! The belief or the confidence that sets upon us while praying is very scintillating. But I am very much against these ‘Deiva kuththams’ or ‘Parihaarams’ ! They are a means of escapism or abstinence.

Well, I don’t know if I have put my feelings about the issue properly in writing !!!

Who knows what will happen? One fine day I may be writing about my spiritual experiences as a firm believer of God vetoing whatever I wrote in here ! But this is my outlook as of now !!!

P.S. This post is not intended to hurt the sentiments of anybody. These are personal opinions and I suppose I am given the fundamental ‘Right of speech and dissent’. If I happen to hurt somebody through my writings, I apologize not for my thoughts but for my way of putting it in a manner that was offending !

P.P.S. Forgot to mention about this ! When some book happens to touch my feet, reflexively and invariably I tap my hands on the cheek and blow a kiss(that’s how everybody does while praying !!!!). Such habits have been sown right from my young age and they are deep-rooted ! And I don’t intend to get rid of such things too !! What’s the harm ?

P.P.P.S. Wondering what P.P.S is? Well, it’s nothing !! Post the Post Script !!! Now, don’t come about asking me what P.P.P.S is?
That was intended to finish on a lighter note after a heavy weight thought process exhausted all my resources like Time, Energy, Memory and others ! No wonder why they call ‘Threads’ a lightweight process !!! Got to segregate my brain like threads and ensure Multi-tasking ! (I am back from a hectic examination, so please put up with this ‘mokkai’ !)