Xeb says

Love
that makes you less,
isn't.

Uncertainty sucks. Demotivation kills.Love blinds. Age impedes.
Life is PATHETIC !

A sudden beating to the heart
Echoing the element of fear
That lets your spirit scorch in darkness
Engulfed by strata of insecurity
Oh! The arrogance crumbles down
Revealing the act of impersonation
And what remains is a soul lost in infinite space

Dance with me, my love
Rising against the resplendent sun
Leaping through the air
Twirling across the floor
For every thump of this pounding heart
For every minute of yours to be mine
Let the music begin

On loop....

I found the nerve today to do something that I couldn't for the last 1 year. And I'm not sure how I'm feeling about this. All that I know is I'm growing up!

Shards of glass strewn across the floor
Scars of past reflecting from the glow
The remnants penetrate deep into the skin
Unerringly numbing the bones out of pain
Time is lost in infinite space
The nomadic soul is waiting to be rescued from the maze

Found this very intriguing -

"I like cigarettes, Miss Taggart. I like to think of fire held in a man's hand. Fire, a dangerous force, tamed at his fingertips. I often wonder about the hours when a man sits alone, watching the smoke of a cigarette, thinking, I wonder what great things have come from such hours. When a man thinks, there is a spot of fire alive in his mind - and it is proper that he should have the burning point of a cigarette as his one expression."

I so want to read Fountain Head now. Howard Roark has been in my dreams. Damn...I didn't get my book !

Sometimes, all she wants to hear is

The dead beat of his heart for her

The soulful melody lost in cacophony

The past in front of her excluding the agony

Telling her that she’s an idiot

But she is everything you want

Someone's stolen my words
To the unerring silence

The Indifference

The valuation expert - on Google's stock split
Humm..will I ever reach there? 

Considering how people say that a new phase of life will guarantee you excitement and change in perspectives, I wonder how this perversely gone-wrong sick head of mine is taking it. Right now, I crave for something that leaves me exhausted at the end of the day to put me to deep slumber. It’s funny to see how we go about throwing tantrums and cage ourselves to pierce through those unyielding and lifeless walls. The heart doesn’t thump anymore as it has already run out of steam. It’s frustrating to see how fate persists with a memory of the past coming to life except that now the characters have reversed and the receiving end has clearly changed. Sometimes, the only course of action is to let life take its own course and see where it leads you to. The path to attaining the fruits of an important decision has drifted and I wonder if it is easy to start all over again. No motivation to find the lights at the end of the tunnel. I wish somebody walks me through all this and motivates me enough to realize my dreams. 

:P

                                              And this is how things vanish into oblivion J

                                               It's a crappy day and I'm pissed like hell ! 

With darkness sweeping and solitude creeping
She climbs up the blind alley reaching the devil’s valley

As the fears haul out of her charmed by darkness
She tries to seek the bends for a new beginning

But the dreams have waited in silent yearning
Long enough to have expired

The soul is now pungent with happiness
Mistakenly Exhilarated

A fortress of stone
Of foolhardy bravado
Except that there are cracks now
A breach.

btw I think I have used foolhardy as an adjective here...Is that even right? :| big deal !! chuck it...

A dark curtain fell over the sky
Little specks appeared from nowhere
Its radiance illuminating the gloom
Amidst the knights stood the prince
With his enchanting crescent like crown
Adorning the celestial kingdom
A mild breeze rustled the leaves
The hustle of the town slowly died
Engulfing it with silence
Desolate roads glow in the artificial lamps
Insanely quiet like death
An obscure wind sends chillness down the spine
What is this feeling?

Whimsy like the fool she was

Dancing to the inharmonious music  

With fantasies gone astray

A dream deciphered

Leading to a destiny she never believed in

Oh ! What an abstraction

Imperfect for two perfect strangers

Whimsy like the fool she was

Waking up to the dream 

The dream that never existed

The stars have fallen at her feet

And yet she dances in the shadows

Whimsy like the fool she was.

Golden Rules of My Life

1. Always stick to your principles. Your principles will constantly be tested, but you need to defend your standards. Never compromise on them for anybody and lose yourself. Learn to adjust with the changing times and still hold on to unchanging principles.

2. Your family loves you more than anybody else. You screw yourself and look behind only to find your family and nobody else. Never underestimate their love for you.

3. They say you should get married to a person who loves you rather than getting married to a person whom you love. This is crap. It’s an old movie cliché. Love needs to be mutual and forgiving. 

4. Never put yourself in a situation where you would have to lose your identity. You are awesome the way you are.

5. An idle mind is a devil’s workshop. Never keep yourself idle. Stress your brain too hard that you doze off in your idle time.

6. Stay unmindful of work politics. Never give valuable suggestions, talk sensibly or be a smart ass. You will screw up your hike!

7. Never screw up your onsite opportunities.  I screwed up a 6 month project that came my way last year and brought it down to 3 months. And in the end, the project didn’t happen. I have been jinxed since then. Multiple opportunities have gone down the drain. 

8. Never let anyone time pass with you. Never let anyone play with your emotions. Realize your worth.

9. A person with no friends is truly cursed. I am really grateful to have great friends around me, those that have stood by me in happiness and sorrow.

10. Work towards your dream relentlessly. It’s ok to fail, but it’s not ok to have never tried. You just have to be patient till it happens. There are people who trust you and your abilities. You are not alone.  

11. Never make permanent decisions on temporary emotions. They are detrimental to you and people around you.

12. Never compromise on marriage. You really don’t want to screw up the next 30 years of your life. Don’t enter into it unless you are completely ready. You will be putting another person’s life and expectations at stake.  Find a man who respects you for what you are, trusts you to death and can still handle your shortcomings thereby making you a better person.

13. Life is short. Do not dwell on your past. Every day is a new day. Learn to identify people who truly care for you.

14. Get back to reading. I miss reading! 

15. Hard work pays. Study hard. 

16. Try to get an altered perspective about spirituality. I am a confused soul here. 

17. Do not drink, smoke or go out on casual dates. A lot of my friends have been pushing me to go on dates. There are some things that my parents taught me and I do not want to question them. I am happy living in a confined cell. To me, you should date somebody whom you love. Love ends in marriage. Period.

18. Make well informed decisions while investing. Do not follow the herd and lose money ! Use your brains. Follow the news regularly.

The cacophony of broken chords linger
Strewn across the streets of tranquility
With verses lost in the air
The eeriness is as sharp as the swords.